I am the Queen of Weight Gain

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Have you been scouring the internet, looking for the perfect way to gain an excessive amount of weight? Well search no more.... I have all the answers you need!

Seriously though, the other night I was out to dinner with The Big Man and BFF (the night before we started our diet) and I calculated that I have put on 16 kilos in the last 6 months. A very scary realisation for me.

The past 6 months has been full of turmoil and I spent the best part of it in denial about the fact that I am suffering from depression and anxiety. The main reason that I wouldn't see the doctor about it was that I didn't want to admit failure. The second biggest reason was that I felt so guilty about the way I was feeling, when I have so many good and exciting things happening in my life right now.

A major side-effect of my emotional roller coaster was that I started a crazy cycle of comfort eating and drinking, which would lead to me getting angry at myself, which would send me straight back to the fridge.

Now that I have (finally) been honest with my doctor I am on the mend mentally and I feel like I am now in a great position to get myself back in to shape. Hence the diet.

I know it is not going to be easy, but this morning when I was craving a bacon and egg mcmuffin (just typing that is making my mouth water) I worked out that if I keep up my weight gain I will break the hundred kilo barrier by Christmas this year. Right now that is definitely enough motivation for me to stay away from McDonalds!

Wish me luck!

T xx

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4 comments:

HWPP said...

Until you've lost weight while pregnant then gained weight while breastfeeding - you've got nothing! But seriously, you can do anything you set your mind to. If you want to lose weight, you will! :o)

Lightening said...

{{{HUGS}}} I TOTALLY know how you feel. Hang in there - you can do this (cos if you can then I can).

hwpp - I gained weight while I was breastfeeding too. :(

ThisGuyDoug said...

Remember, McD's isn't real food anyway, and (non-)real food sold to you by a clown JUST ISN'T RIGHT SOMEHOW. I don't know how exactly, but it just isn't. Hey, good luck and best wishes. You can do it!

Tamsyn said...

Hwwp - Thank you J, you are very sweet and supportive... Although I am not looking forward to pregnancy and breastfeeding as much now! x

Lightening - You are the person that motivated me to write a blog post that wasn't all sunshine and roses. I was scared to be completely honest, but inspired by how well people respond to your honesty. Thank you, thank you, thank you!

Thisguygoug - I will definitely be keeping clowns in mind next time I crave McDonalds! A very good point and thanks for your encouragement, I appreciate it :)